Awakening

Hello everyone. Thank you for allowing me to write about my on-going adventure called awakening.

I’ve recently been experiencing smells. No matter where I go I’m always smelling perfumes and men’s fragrances and it happens randomly in people’s houses.

So besides the fact that I feel the pain and struggles going on in people’s lives I’m now smelling the people that are roaming around in their spaces from another realm.

Its been a hectic few months. I’ve had friends becoming ill and obviously carrying their feelings and melancholy. I’m also going through some health issues but it gets me wondering if my friends’ illnesses haven’t just attached itself to me.

I’m having back pains- is it a spirit attached to me or just a health issue?

I’m going for a mammogram soon- is that just me feeling my friends pain and its causing me chest pain as its near my heart and I love them so much. They are like my sisters.

Family of mine is going through cancer and chemo so is it my imagination that my breasts are painful and I’m just feeling their pain or is my pain valid and it might be something bad I really can’t- say but my journey being an empath is teaching me so many things, that every day is a new experience.

That’s it for now. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share my journey into the unknown world of the supernatural.

Deborah Jordaan

Shining Light on What is Dark

Everyone speaks about the light, giving little reference to darkness – or that which haunts you. It comes as a gift to us, beautifully packaged but unopened. What deters us is the fear of the contents, also known as TRAUMA.

To identify Trauma, you have to peel away layers and layers of addiction, fear, abuse, neglect, vanity, competition, inadequacy, lack of grieving/excessive grieving, violation of self and others, worry and not speaking your TRUTH.

Everyone develops ways to cope and accept a life that is half lived. We set a goal for ourselves and we give it time, multiplied by effort and then we expect an outcome. What we fail to admit to ourselves is what we’re trying to hide when – We know that the goal we set is not what we want and it’s not who we are OR the level of the goal is mediocre. A pattern of Trauma is then activated: shame, denial, deceit, neglect. These are the pillars of Trauma.

Remember the diet that you attempted every Monday morning? Or the intention of completing that which you’ve postponed over and over? Or what about the last cigarette that you’ve lit, 30 cigarettes ago? The list becomes endless. And so each time we berate ourselves for not being strong enough, bold enough, weak, powerless, cowardice and fearful. At the end of the last cigarette, of ‘the last time and this is final,’ we are so traumatised that of course we deserve one more for the road. How do we make it out alive? We don’t. We barely function. We pretend.

Facing what haunts you is gruelling stuff. But we cannot journey forward if we don’t get that monkey off our backs.

by Dominique Jones

empath\bipolar

My name is Debbie and I’m an empath\bipolar. I heard you say ‘ Oh no! ‘

I came into my ‘ super power ‘ a while back not even knowing what was happening to me.

My behaviour could not even be classified as a psychiatric condition. It had a portfolio of its own.

When I came home ill after visiting friends of mine I would shrug it off as just being tired but it happened repeatedly and only with two of my close friends.

I’d come home depressed, having migraines, feelings of hopelessness and despondancy. Something was wrong.

One day by chance I came upon an article about empaths and I had a ‘wow’ moment – I was an empath. I knew that I had the ability to carry peoples feelings and I was like a sponge absorbing the negativity that was in their space.

Next step was to get myself out of these situations and regroup, meaning take a time out from toxic relationships.

I miss my friends but not their circumstances. I stand by them as long as I’m not physically in their space.

Being an empath is never easy especially when it comes to close relationships, partners try understand but its very difficult for them to understand the depth of your pain and negative feelings. Staying positive takes alot of ‘ me ‘ time and my grandsons help me regroup. A child is so open and full of life it refreshes my soul and I’m ready to take flight from there.

A close relative of mine is very ill at the moment resulting in me being quite ill too. Her and I were soul mates forever so once shes better I can face the world again. Her pain is mostly in her head area- leading to my vomitting and headaches at the current moment. So her and I are bound by more than just being blood family. My empathic powers are more profound where it regards her and my children.

So for now I go to work and back and try stay away from toxic people and situations. I find absolute solace in the confines of my bedroom surrounded by my crystals, angels and feathers. It keeps me calm.
Thank you for letting me express myself.
Deb

deborah jordaan